Quote Originally Posted by ProjectEuropa
You seem to be suggesting the concerns you felt are because of an online relationship. Am I right in thinking that and if so do you feel able to expand a little why it caused you so many concerns?

I am interested in this aspect. If you feel unable to expand, don't worry about it.
Yes the concerns/question stemmed from an online relationship (which didn't begin under a D/s context). That's my only real experience with D/s in the truly mental aspect.

I don't mind expanding a little. I would say it caused me concerns because if I could end up like this through an online relationship, couldn't it be more severe in real life? But, I truly believe part of it was CAUSED by it being an online relationship and not being able to attain it in real life. Frustration, love, and desire turned me into a completely weak and tragic person. It left me severely confused and hurt. Also wondering if I could truly ever handle a relationship that delves into this level- even though that's the part that I am so utterly attracted by. Not to mention, I was just discovering this whole arena of a relationship.

I hope that helped explain a little better. If you have any more questions, don't hesitate or you are welcome to PM me any time.