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The things i am talking about include self harm and just general things that i know he wouldn't like. i hate it, i just find myself doing them and not being able to stop. i need him and he's not there.


If you find yourself doing self harm it ccould be an indicator of another serious problem such as depression. It could be casued by the anxiety of seperation or other issues. Few questionbs to ask. Do you ahve a history of self harm? What am I thinking wqhen I am doing thing. Try to determine if your consciously doing it becasue your bored sad lonely or are acting out to get attention when he returns even if it is negative.

Since you are doing self harm i wwould sugest seeing a medical doctor and or a counselor. They are a varoiety of professionals who are kink friendly. Once you have done tgat.

Few more things to try. Do you have freidns or do you spend your time alone. Try getting out and socializing. Next ask your Master toassign you tasks to do to help keepo you occupied. Learn a hobby such as leatherwork and make toys to be used on yourself. If you live near an area with a munch or rl scene grooup ask his permission to attend their functions and get to konw memberts. the support of others both online and rl may be a big helkp to you.

Lastly if none of this seems to work for you, ask you Master if he would rind or allow you to seek a Master to supoerivse you with in his guidleines while he is away. This can create issues such as divided loyaoties so I reccomend it only as a last resort.

If you have any more questions or need some private information such as on how to contact a doc in your area feel free to e-mail me at master_kyrk1@yahoo.com.

As with any issue though you should always discuss it with your Master seek his advice and opinon that is what we are there for even when we are not close by.