Hiya Putnamcocpl and welcome!

I don't think you sound like an idiot at all, but rather like a person who cares deeply for the one you love and don't want to ruin something beautiful that has started between you. I really hope you'll find the advice you're looking for here, there's some great people around the forums that will be glad to share their experiences with you.

Hope to see you around & good luck with your research! Have fun...

Silke