I felt ashamed at the honest answer I had to give him. "No, no I've never experienced any of it. It's just always been a dream of mine. I want to live the lifestyle, to be someone's play toy" Startled, I realized I was beginning to babble, so I bit the inside of my lip to shut myself up.

Great I thought, now he's going to think I'm some kind of thrill seeker and kick me out of his club. I could feel my face turning red and I sighed a deep breath and looked down at the ground, too ashamed to look him in the eye anymore.