Torment.

I had people that lied to me when I first started learning about this online.

I mean a big lie. Huge. And it's help shape a lot of what I feel about the relationships of mine and others within this 'lifestyle.'

The only reason I am still online and conversing with people online is because I am not giving a part of myself.... And if I ever get a more serious conversation going they HAVE to have a cam.