Hi thalia. I think I experienced the same thing like you. I recently broke up with my boyfriend, because he wasn't able to provide me with what I need. He was into light bondage, but it wasn't enough for me. I need someone stronger, stronger than me who could take away my control and let me be free. I had a heartache when I broke up with him, he was a nice guy. But we both know we won't be happy in the long run if we won't stay true to ourselves.

I haven't read any Gor books. I'm a new to this lifestyle too. Maybe I'll try them